I can't sleep. My eyes are all puffed up real bad. Why must it happen now? Why must I be the one who keeps on causing shits? I really should kill myself for being the way he hates me to be. Till then, this blog will be my companion. This blog would then be my boyfriend.
I never wanted to be that way you thought I did. I waited much for you, more than you can ever imagine. Every minute i kept on awaiting by the phone. Every time my phone rang, I jumped for joy thinking it might be you. Even when it got so late, sometimes i fell asleep. But as soon as my phone rang, I woke up hurriedly to talk to you. That was how badly i needed you all the while.
22 September 2009. Almost a month counting down from today, will be the day I hear from you sayang. All this time, I have never gone sick waiting for you. I will wait, wait for the day to come by, just for me to talk to you once again.
Never have I intended to create collision with you. I wanted to sound happy. I wanted to just talk to you. I never scolded you even if you never had the time for me, I tried my best not to be ego and understand you. You told me, you sacrificed much. But I dont know where will it get us next to from now. A month, that;s long.
From now on, i'll treat this blog as you dear. Every moment i spend during the day, would be written here. I guess, I ought to be more worried of who;s going to ask for your well-being every single day, and who's going to hear your every complains or problems you have everyday. And will i get more worried of who;s trying get their hands on you, that would be the greatest fear that would come true as a nightmare.
I love you.
terlalu sadis caramu.
♥With Love, Sunday, August 30, 2009
