And yes again, we planned for another date out at the West Coast. Actually it was due Wednesday, but then boyfriend turned out to be not working. So we advanced it by a day. Hell yeah. Both of us we such in a rush. Waking up straight & got ready. Hehs. And again, as if it was planned, both were wearing black. boyfriend/girfriend sibukk luh! hahs.
Exactly the same spot as the previous date, we pitched our tent under the big shady tree. Hahs. It was just another great sunny afternoon to spend together! =)
♥With Love, Tuesday, March 31, 2009
Sunday, March 29, 2009
Currently I'm getting myself head over heels over this band called "The Bird And The Bee". Well, the band is kind of vintage or some sort retro i shall say. The songs are superb! So this video is my all time favourite song called Love Letter To Japan. Hehs. Japan aye?
♥With Love, Sunday, March 29, 2009
Saturday, March 28, 2009
Off to a new start.
Ouhkay guys, we're both having a new combined blog.
It's going to be Aan's as well as Dee's!!
♥With Love, Saturday, March 28, 2009
Friends.
Im Over & Done With.
Leave It With The Best Of Memories.
♥With Love, Saturday, March 28, 2009
Friday, March 27, 2009
Stan Lovee Antu.
Only Antu.
Currently I'm dead beat. Still,after yesterday's great outing. hahs. well,i'm very sleepy so to speak but i can't just get to bed till yet. Bby's out for the moment so i'm literally waiting for him to return home. =)
Yesterday night, I had another 'let-it-out' session with Bby. Yeah, it's almost ten months and yet we're keeping things shut tight. I learned from the past, basically letting go of what we feel was the best solution we can possibly work out. Now, I'm very satisfied, at ease and i'm very self-assured after what we've talked and worked out yesterday.
Sleeq's "Jangan Sampai Terlambat" song is my current playback song for the moment. I mean,i'm not crazy over the boys but this song kind of sets the mood for the time being. Suits it like some sort. Hahs.
*Remember, I ONLY lovee you & no one else. You're what i need from now till the end. & yes, again I promise to lovee you till forever. ILYSM Md Farhan*
♥With Love, Friday, March 27, 2009
Thursday, March 26, 2009
Captured Moments.
Make It Last Forever.
As planned,bby & I went down to chill at West Coast Park.hahs.well,it was so called a change of environment cause we're sick & tired of 'lepaking' under the block. I mean,at least we can think of another way to lease and spend time together. =)
So yeah, I shall say I had fun today. I mean,things were mediocre and plain as in we didnt prepare food earlier etc but then by just being with the person you lovee,things were just so picture-purrrfect.
Again,camwhoring was the main thing we did.What was there to do with a camera? hahs.so yeah.moments were captured for memorabilia purposes.
Well,times like these are really good in a way to spend with bby.I mean,days gets hectic sometimes so at times we cant get to spend ample time together. So Bby,this goes to say we need to have more outings or 'dates' like these i shall say.Hahs! take notice kay,compulsory!!
♥With Love, Thursday, March 26, 2009
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
Am trying hard to earn your trust.
♥With Love, Tuesday, March 24, 2009
How can i ever assure you? It Hurts to hear you say those things. When can you ever just going to believe me? That's the only thing im asking cause it hurts plainly to always see you thinking way far negative about things.
♥With Love, Tuesday, March 24, 2009
Stanwyck's Unscripted But True.
Finally Over & Done With.
Well,for this entry I'm just going to literally put it in simple sentences. Hope it explains.
Whatever kept inside for 'decades' long has finally been let out in two different ways; at ease as the river flowing and also violent as a volcanic eruption.
How a relieve it was. Simply because you have waited for quite a long time. But hell,it was too hard to just speak out those words cause it was described plainly as 'unreasonable', 'stupid' & just 'crap'.
Trust was what it takes. It's now or never. By just a word of mouth, maybe you just can't assure someone that you could be trusted. Maybe by proving it, with actions and other things of some sort could make the person trust you. Eventhough you know that things wouldnt happen and you tried your best telling the person and wanting so much to be trusted, what else can you do if he/she insists that it's still shaky or unclear that the 'trust' still can;t be assured? Wait, I'm proving it. From now onwards,just for you.
Yes, maybe it hurts or it's sad to hear what was being told but who can escape from reality? the truth? it's hard to digest,but i am slowly forgetting it.
Assurance. That's what i'm doing. Trying my very best reassuring that you;re just the one, i'm creating solutions that'll best suit and maybe adding advantage to the relationship. And again, limitations. It's ouhkay to lose other things in the world, but not you.
But whatever it is, I Love You.
*Uuurgghh.PMS sucks bigtime.It;s making me feel bad. So bad that it's making me worse-off.Fcuk!*
♥With Love, Tuesday, March 24, 2009
Thursday, March 12, 2009
I know this sounds weird ; It's just plain jealously. That's what i felt at times,maybe always maybe not. Can't hide this no longer but i just can't take it anymore.
♥With Love, Thursday, March 12, 2009
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
Why exactly people are born to be not perfect? Yeah.God made us that way right? and of course we can't change things the way they are.Certainly,some things could be changed but it takes our ownself to decide.
I feel so helpless.When there was a chance to speak up and to let him know what i wanted,i was just far too coward maybe or just plain keeping myself shut.gosh.what the hell is simply wrong with me??I knew what I wanted & certainly i knew what WE wanted. But hell,i just made things worse!
Attention.that was just the key thing that was needed.I knew and i planned to make our day the best and seeing you smile,makes me blithe! But seriously,i was far too stupid,didnt think about the outcome.I really wanted to spend my day with you but hell i screwed up everthing.i just screwed it up.fcuk.
I just hope we really cleared things up.When i thought back on what we both said,it was seriously a clash point between us.
P.S : Happy 9mthmonthsary,ILY.
♥With Love, Wednesday, March 11, 2009
Saturday, March 7, 2009
Limitations,Conceited.
Ouh well.For the meantime,i'm going to put on a halt on some things.First of all,to dearest boys esp friends and besties,i'm trying to limit myself especially in socialising .Yeah.as i can say,i may be quite different right now.gee,i really hope u guys know what i mean based on the previous entry right? hmm. I'm still the same Siti/Dee you know but yeah,as i say i'm going to change a lil bit alright.accept it straight cause i'm doing the best for myself and my loved one.truthfully,who doesnt get green eyes seeing or hearing your partner with another person right as in friends/besties being far,far too close to each other?i know how it feels and actually sometimes i do feel the same way as he does.that it why i had to do this.i don't want any of us to keep all this crap inside our hearts,afraid sooner or later it'll burst.
I Love You
♥With Love, Saturday, March 07, 2009
Sumpah Mati, I Love You.
Ain't NEVER gonna do shit to our relationship.
Today,my day started great.Really great.i met bby when he finished sch.so we had to run some errands before i headed to Faris Bestie's birthday bash.
When the time came,i headed to meet faris straight.the plan was actually to kinda distract him and to delay the time cause the girls need to prepare the deco n stuff.hahs.so yeah.i made my way,practically wasting my time to yishun,Northpoint.TRUTHFULLY and HONESTLY faris and i were just buying food and we just filled our empty stomachs.so yeah.we headed behind northpoint and sat like two anak terbiar eating like no one's bussiness.then what we ONLY did was camwhore.taking pictures cause it's been a while since we did.
After getting the queue call from the girls, i headed straight to BottleTree and I had to blindfold the birthday boy.Using simple LOGIC,i had to hold him and guide his way through along the way.
Birthday boy was far too elated and he teared when he saw the surprise.we were happy cause we made his day. Once again,Happy 17th Brthday BESTIE.
My day was far too great with bby and besties BUT it turned really SOUR because of some fucker's mouth.gosh.i was seriously so shocked and startled when bby called me in a very harsh and cold manner then he told me what happened.hell yeah i was shocked when bby told me that fucking friend of his saw me with a guy,doing things which i aint supposed to be doing.fcuk man.
i was seriously agitated and yet freaking sad when bby sounded as if he didnt believe me.what i could rely on was just praying hard to God that things wont go outta hand.that fucker tarnished my image and made me sound as if im cheap and i could go along with any guys so simply.fcuk man.mind YOU,im not like other girls u see outside.seriously im not even near ouhkay.talked to bby on the phone and he said he wanted me back in one piece.i admit im shattered into tiny bits and pieces.i promise you and insyallah,i'll heal soon alright syg?
* I know i'm not in the wrong and that is why I could post this up in this blog entry.im not a coward and i LIVE BY MY WORDS.eventhough u'd try to tarnish me and my relationship,hell yeah,sooner or later u're gonna get it.there's always a pay back time. But whatever it is,whatever motive u have,it's not gonna get u nowhere. YOU SUCK.GO FUCK OFF BASTARD!!!!!!!*
♥With Love, Saturday, March 07, 2009
Wednesday, March 4, 2009
Dee Lovee Aan Ouhkay.
U Make My Day Baby.
Woke up quite early today I shall say.yeah cause basically i was far too excited that I'm going to meet bby today! hahs.well,i picked up bby from school and then sent him back home.aww.how sweet.right3?
It's been quite sometime I met bby.yeah,i admit i miss like mad! hahs.how can i not miss him.i was away in Malaysia for a few days as i got to attend a wedding there.so yeah.today i got to lease out my rinduness!
took some pictures as well.yeah.it's been a while since we've camwhore together.hahs.so lucky i reminded bby.at least there's some new peektures for me to look and smile at when i miss him.*wink2. And by the way bby,you make my day today. I love you so much sayangku.
to that fcuking asshole out there,please stop whatever you're doing.cause ur deeds are making my family's life topsy turvy.it's because of you my family became shattered like pieces of broken glass.im just waiting for the right time to make a solid return to you.just wait till my patience has reached my limits.you're gonna be so dead.
and to that someone out there,it's ouhkay for you to hate me cause i'll never hate you.but now,with what u've been doing,you're making me hate u even more.i'm not being rude but i cant stand the pain.because of what u're doing,im leading a very harsh life now.i repeat,VERY harsh.thanks a lot.i'll never forget this my entire life.
