Stanwyck's yearning for the best memories we had.

for today i didnt turn up for school.simply because there's some things here to be taken care of at home.didnt wish to tell people what is it about really.yeah.a little too private but as i can say right now, i'm happy for the someone.someone i lost once has now returned back to me.god's will.my prayers are all answered at last.my dearest Abg Emi is back with our family once more.IMY alot dearestt abg.promise me NOT to leave me again.

aan sygg texted me last night.as per usual,it's the same old topic we've been on about.the flipside of us basically.how things change and in turn changed us too,bigtime.happy for him to adhere to his bestie's advice & stuff.i hope that will work out well.IF he puts in effort and improve the state he's in right now.well.as for me.i dont quite realise and know how bad or worse ive changed.but yah.maybe i should reflect on that once more.

from my point of view.i feel something really is lacking.well.you could really sense the difference but yah.u just dont know how in the world to just approach it.signs have shown.they are all proven but yah.as i say.i just dont know how to.

my love for you dear darla has never fade away.but sometimes i dont feel secure by who you are right now.how i wish we can both go back to where we were before.im yearning for tha badly.if you could only hear my cries,of how badly i wanted things to be,that i guess would help a little.but they are all just eating me up inside.dear farhan,I LOVE YOU.

for the rest of the afternoon till late evening,i guess i'm up mugging.yeah.eventhough im in a mental trap right now,i got to be smart in how i want things to turn out.gosh.i need that peace of mind.seriouslyy.things are just getting on my way.well.that's for today i hope.now practically waiting for his text and call.*wondering where and how is he right now.*